In the Event of War
(Based on Mary Renault's The Charioteer)
Matron walked in her slow and stately fashion
past the off-duty nurses and sisters, who hushed their gossip till she was gone by. There were
inspections; there were the inevitable forms to fill; there was the daily report to the Major. In
each task, she could see parallels to her responsibilities at the nursing home—her
nursing home—where she had ruled for nearly ten years. Mummy would have liked her
to marry; but, after the war, there were so few suitable men. She hadn’t been interested, anyway.
There were definite parallels between the privations of life now and her days as a
trainee at the Royal Infirmary in Leicester: the narrow bed, the dreadful food, the long
rows of patients in the wards. At the nursing home, as Matron, she had had a suite of rooms assigned
to her: she had settled in graciously, making the space decorously her own, with the comforts to which
she had been raised. Also, of course, there was a better sort of patient: middle-class
or better; people who could afford private accommodation for their convalescence.
The E.M.S. hospital was not at all what she was used to. Why, oh why, had she volunteered for the Reserve?
It was not a true question. She knew, she remembered, and she regretted it dearly. Indeed,
she had had doubts as soon as the words were out of her mouth—long before her trip to London,
to the mandatory interview at the War Office before her acceptance into the Queen Alexandra’s
Reserve. It had been Lady Herrick again. The same Lady Herrick whom Mummy had persuaded to
use her influence to get her daughter the position of Matron when it fell vacant. (Mummy had
never liked her becoming a nurse. Her one great rebellion had been insisting on proper
training.) She had been young to be appointed Matron; but then she had been raised to
assume such a rank. She knew how to defer politely to the doctors, converse kindly with
the families of the patients, and rule her staff with a firm hand. Church bazaar, school
fête, Girl Guides … nursing home. Mummy had always been good at organizing,
and taught her well.
It was Mummy, of course, who had “organized” the invitation to Lady Herrick’s Spring
Ball. Of that, there was no doubt—nor the motivation, which again was marriage (of
course), to an eligible man of middle years, whether in the church or the army, law or
medicine. A widower, perhaps. There were a few whom Mummy would consider suitable; and
most would attend the party, which was always one of the highlights of year.
The threat to Czechoslovakia had been in the news. Not suitable party talk, surely. Yet it
was Lady Herrick who had brought up the threat of war—this, of course, was before the Munich
Agreement (for all that had proved to be worth)—and reminded all around that
she had herself been a V.A.D. in the Great War. The War Office, she declared, was even now
asking hospital Matrons to encourage their best nurses to join the Queen Alexandra Imperial
Military Nursing Service. Or, more accurately, to sign up for the Reserves.
And it was then that Lady Herrick had turned to her, and challenged her to match this patriotic behaviour.
Perhaps it was the eyes of society upon her, awaiting her response. Perhaps it was the
second glass of champagne (for nowadays she never normally had wine with her dinner). Certainly,
the next morning, she felt embarrassed by her quick words. She would have forgotten them, if
Dr Redmond, who had been there, had not congratulated her, in some surprise, on her unexpected
turn of patriotism. Unwillingly, she had felt compelled to write an application. In truth,
she had not expected even to receive a response. She was qualified, of course—technically,
at least. But she had not personally cared for patients since becoming Matron. She was,
if one might put it so, out of practice.
Several weeks passed; and she had put it all out of mind as folly reprieved. It was a shock
to receive the morning mail, slit the envelopes routinely open, and find herself reading a
letter appointing a time and date for her to attend in London.
For a moment, she thought she might simply not go. However, her heart quailed at the thought
of ignoring an official summons. Instead, she reassured herself again that she was, after all
these years, hopelessly out of practice. Surely, she would fail the interview and be turned
down! She fortified herself with that thought on her long train journey to London—though
she more than once regretted coming as she deciphered the route from St Pancras station to the
Horse Guards Avenue with the aid of a newly purchased A-Z Atlas. Her appointment was not till
the afternoon; still, she felt compelled to orient herself. (It would not do to be late.) Near
the War Office itself, her guidebook told her, was the old Banqueting House building. She
duly admired the exterior. Then, with the aid of her maps, she tried a little sight-seeing
and, having thus found some peace of mind, recovered her appetite sufficiently to take a
late luncheon in the Maison Lyonses at Marble Arch before returning timely for her interview.
The questions posed by the Matron in Chief, Miss Roy, were searching. With relief, she
realized that the very truth would condemn her as unfit, and spoke freely. At the end,
therefore, she sat back quietly, hands folded in her lap and ankles crossed, confident of
rejection. In shock, she heard instead that she had been accepted. Matrons, as well as
nurses, are required by hospitals in wartime.
A lady does not reveal her feelings. Speechless, she received a sealed packet, thanked Miss
Roy, stood and shook her hand, and made her way whitely out to the street. The sun was strangely
bright. She walked back to the station, scarcely hearing the traffic.
It was a long trip home, with a change in Leicester. At one point, when no one else was in the
carriage, she took down her bag and had a good look. “Open only in the event of war,” said
the instructions. Leaving the package still sealed, therefore, she put it back. The die is
cast, she thought; and she could only hope not to suffer the event of war.
No, it had not at all been what she expected. Nor, when she finally did open her orders and
report for duty, did the Emergency Medical Services hospital resemble anything she had imagined,
even from Lady Herrick’s tales of the Great War.
At least, she thought, she had her little bedroom cubicle. Even if the nurses and sisters had
to share (and they hated having to share), Matron needed her privacy. Or perhaps they needed
privacy from Matron. At any rate, she had that privacy, if only for a few precious
hours. Silently, she unclasped her scarlet-edged cloak, stripped off the grey ward dress, and
hung them on the hook screwed into the hut wall. In her night clothes, she knelt and said her
prayers. First for the young men at the E.M.S. Hospital, who had done their duty in France and
suffered for it, that God might mend them and send them forth as whole as possible; second for
a quick end to this terrible war, survival for those in London (she had heard the news on the
radio at tea time), and the well-being of Mr Churchill, and the King and his family; and finally
for the continued health and safety of her own family and the friends she had left back in
Ashby-de-la-Zouch. For herself, she asked nothing. At
this point, there was nothing she wanted that God could grant.
She turned off the light. Darkness blotted the lurid colours of the cheap cotton counterpane;
but the mattress remained as hard as ever. Silently, tears slipped onto the thin pillow, cased
in the slip she had brought in her one small suitcase. Silk, edged with broderie
anglaise: it might be incongrous in a military hospital; but it was balm to her cheek.
Author’s Note
“In the Event of War” was written as a gift for fawatson in the 2017
Everywoman Exchange, uploaded to the
Archive Of Our Own
on 30 June 2017, and released the same day. The author reveal was on 7 July 2017, and the
story was posted here 15 July.
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